I am so excited about my trip to Korea. I think that the experience will change how I view the world...myself. I am not sure how I am to be accepted, a guest, a family member, perhaps a curiosity. I know that these men are my brothers, they are impressions of me, what I may become...I just pray that I don't disappoint them.

They seem to be men bound by their brotherhood. They get together weekly or monthly and family seems to hold a special meaning for them. My sister and I go months without speaking. I think my record for not speaking to members of my family is over a year. How different it will be to be seen by my brothers.

I am very interested in knowing them; to see if their roots are like mine; to see if I share the most primal connection that seems to bind them to eachother. I am looking forward to meeting my uncle who cared for me for a time; I have so many questions.

My biological father expressed regret in sending me to America. I hope he knows now that he delivered me to a life of unimaginable blessing and happiness. What will I learn? What (if anything) will I teach?

I guess we'll see in 10 days.